Lord, fire divine, have mercy

2010-02-04T10:44:00.000-08:00

Call you up in the middle of the night

Like a firefly without a light

You were there like a blowtourch burning

I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired I couldn't even sleep

So many secrets I couldn't keep

Promised myself I wouldn't weep

One more promis i couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now

I'm in too deep

There's no way out

This time I have really lead myself astray

Runaway train, never going back

Wrong way on a one-way track

Seems like I should be getting somewhere

Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile?

Make it somehow all seem worthwhile

How on earth did I get so Jaded?

Life's mysteries seem soo faded

I can go where no one else can go

I know what no one else knows

Here I am just drowning in the rain

With a ticket for a runaway train

And everything seems cut and dry

Day and night

Earth and sky

somehow I just don't believe it

Runaway train, never going back

Wrong way on a one-way track

Seems like I should be getting somewhere

Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Bought a ticket for a runaway train

Like a madman laughing at the rain

Little out of touch, Little insane

It's just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train, never going back

Wrong way on a one-way track

Seems like I should be getting somewhere

Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Runaway train, never coming back

Runaway train, tearing up the track

Runaway train, burning in my veins

I run away but it always seems the same

Why, or Why Not

2010-01-17T07:58:00.000-08:00

To get my happiness I had done everything
But had done nothing to be blamed and accused of
The sound of footsteps became louder every day
Then I noticed the fact there was no time

I was a believer in life to be myself always
And was asking whether I would be alive

* Give me a reason why not to adopt in this way
Or judge me to be guilty of so many incurable sins
Tell me why, or why not complaining way too much
Maybe I overlooked something fatal for me

The whole world was at a complete standstill
And I was in fetters, at the mercy of the mob
The silent warning became louder every day
Then I kept pretending not to hear

Its meaning had been in the eyes of beholder all along
It had grown dark before I found a sign

** “Among the nonsense tragedies, what on earth you are looking for?
You only have to be honest to yourself and your own fate”
Tell me why, or why not complaining way too much
Maybe I overlooked something fatal for me

There is nobody who knows there will be nobody
Except for me, all the world has gone mad

So what is forgiveness you are willing to withhold?
What is the well-being you are willing to make?

No Creativity

2010-01-12T01:57:00.000-08:00

Life was blan and colorless. I spent day after day wasting my time only to accomplish nothing. I needed to find me something to give meaning to my life. I was soon to give up, and then you came along. You brought the colors of your world to mine. You have given my life purpose, and i hope to never dissapoint. You have become the person i seek out first in whatever the situation is and hope that i can make the best of the situations thinking about you. I hope that the journey of mine will become the greatest adventure of my life... i know its dumb, i thought it up on a whim >.<

If You Only Knew

2009-12-25T00:31:00.001-08:00

If you only knew
I'm hanging by a thread
The web I spin for you
If you only knew
I'd sacrifice my beating
Heart before I lose you
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
I swear I've lived and learned

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew
How many times I counted
All the words that wen't wrong
If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go,
Even when you're gone
I don't regret any days I
Spent, nights we shared,
Or letters that I sent

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
You help me live and learn

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, believe in is you
I still believe in you
Oh, if you only knew

Leaving Soon, but Will Return

2009-12-08T03:22:00.000-08:00

I will be back, we have a sattalite rented for internet and stuff so we will get to use it, lets keep talking and stuff because i love you :)

Alone

2009-11-28T06:00:00.000-08:00

I too am alone. It's sad being alone. It's painful. I felt that way too. But if we're together, at times we may hurt each other, and we may even part. But, that is not the end. I'll always be with you.